Weight Off My Shoulders

I've been one of the worst "bloggers" ever.

<< i put the "" because I don't think I qualify as one >>

I don't post often. I have no good material to write about. I was using this as a way to share, but how much do I really need to share with everyone? Do I share everything or nothing? Where is that fine line?

I promise to try to be better.. on a lighter note. I started a new project. I'll give you a sneak peek with this picture!

 This weekend I was finally really positive and I wanted that mood to continue, and when I went to the grocery store these babies were only $3!! How do you pass those up? So of course I couldn't resist, and I found the perfect place for them!

To finish off this weekend, I took these two little ones to the park by our house and they loved it!! To the max! She was running up a storm, and was getting mad because I can't throw the disc like her daddy! Normally he throws the disc the length span of the park and she makes a mad dash for it! This time... pshh, she caught it in the air e.v.e.r.y.t.i.m.e. She would run back to me with this look like "c'mon mom, a little further would help"

My Heart is across the country.

The new year started, and so did T's job. I like to think that when things change it means for the better.

This new job is taking him everywhere. Everywhere as in different cities, different states and even different countries.

 While this is an amazing, let me repeat amazing experience for us, I know it will be hard for me. Hard in the way that we won't get to see each other. I know that if people are reading, they may think that I sound like a child for saying that. I know that not seeing your significant other is not a serious problem, and I don't want to act like it is.

I just mean its tough.

It's tough in the eyes of me, hes the only person who I can vent to. He's the only one who helps me get up in the morning, and he's the only one who I can have a blast with counting to 100.

<< Seriously that did happen. I don't know what we were doing but we were cracking up counting to 100>>

The first day back to work I made a statement joke about me not having a life because my life was across the country.

My coworkers said that I was pathetic, and while it may sound that way out of context, I am not. 

It's hard because I don't have anyone to talk to while hes gone, and I don't have "friends" per say. I have acquaintances, coworkers and family but I do not have friends. That's the hardest part. With him, my best friend, I can tell him everything. When I have good days and when I have bad. My heart is across the country right now, and I don't mind if I sound pathetic, because one day they will understand what I mean when I say that.

 I am not the person who spends every minute of everyday with him, and I am not moping around while he is gone...BUT, and there is a big BUT here... I am sad, and wish that time would fast forward already.

Third times a Charm?

I can't get into the habit of writing posts. There's so much I want to share, but at the same time... I don't know how to put it into words. 

With 2012 coming to an end, I figured I'd follow in suite with eveyones recap. I just started blogging, but it gives whoever reading a little insight into my life. I don't want to do all of 2012 because we didn't have many big moments, but there were a couple of biggies!

March:

 We moved into our first house! It's just a rental, but such a huge milestone! We finally moved out of apartments, to somewhere with a backyard, and the ability to park in the garage!

It was one of the most stressful, and amazing experiences. In the almost year we've been there, we've learned so much about living in a house, and surprisingly each other.

May:

T had his 9th surgery on his knee, and it went great. We rested, and enjoyed the visits from his mom and mine as he was bound to the couch. The surgery forced him out of work until the end of the year, but thankfully his knee is finally pain free!

August:

My sisters & I took pictures for my moms birthday & they came out amazing! My mom used to be a photographer, she loves pictures! The second best part of this month, I broke out of my shell! I am not the person who attends an 80's pub crawl! But guess what? I did!! I had so much fun! It was crazy :)

October:

This month honestly was an amazing month. It was our anniversary, and we took a trip to Monterey and just enjoyed each other. We got engaged on a beach just the two of us, and even went to the aquarium!

The end of the year was really busy for us, we hosted Christmas, and had a billion birthdays in the last couple of months. With the new year comes new places and people. Thomas gets to start a new job in a completely new city and I'm following. I couldn't be more thrilled to start 2013. 2012 was such a great year, I can't imagine what 2013 has in store!

2 is my favorite number

My first post was scattered just about everywhere. I don't think theres any rhyme or reason for my posts just yet, but one day there will be.

{{So who am I?}}

          You'd think for a question of only 4 words it would be simple to answer, but of course its not.
  

I'm 22, I work and go to school fulltime. I'm engaged, and have two puppies dogs.
I live in Northern California, and have for most of my life.
I'm one of three girls, which is a blessing and a curse :)
I've moved around alot, but that's not something I will ever regret.

I'm always quiet until I'm comfortable around you. I worry way too much, and overthink everything. I'm OCD, hardcore. I'm too nice, and tend to be oblivious to the fact. I grew up quickly, and am just now learning how to slow down. I get caught up in the day to day and forget about the big picture. I worry about money and bills, and making everyone I know happy. I love getting mail (except bills). My favorite part of the day is the mornings, because its eerily calm, yet I've never been a morning person.

It takes me 3x longer to write about myself, than any other subject.

I'm still just getting started, and I know for a fact, that the best is yet to come. Introductions suck.  

There's always a first time for everything.

Starting a blog is something that I've wanted to do, well for awhile, but starting is the worst part!

When you start a blog you have to do that dreaded first post. Do you introduce yourself? Talk about nothing? Make it short?

 I wish I could skip ahead to like 4 months down, where I could act like a pro. Even though I know thats not how it works.. 

I can dream right?

Why do I want to blog? For a million reasons, some personal, some not so much. I already write a journal, which typing out makes me sound like a 14 year old girl. Which I promise, I'm not.. I may act like one on occasion, but who doesn't? Okay okay, back to what I was saying. The two main reasons I want to blog are because I just got engaged,(I know its real unique)and the second is because we are about to move across the country come the new year!

Who's we? T & I,? 

The story of him & I isn't something that I can sum up in a small paragraph, so I'll save that for a post of it's own.

At the end of the day, this is something for me, as I'm sure most blogs start that way. Of course, I want people to enjoy what I have to say, I'm not a writer... I'm a journaler, thats what I do, & what I  enjoy. Like I said, the first couple of posts will be awkward, they'll jump around, but I think we can make it through.